I guess I just have to try being strong alone. Sucks to feel this way. Why must I leave before. No, why didn't I came earlier. Such a stupid fuck! There's this beast inside of me that really needs to be released. I'm just so angry at myself for being the coward nobody thought I'd be. Why is this so hard! Why am I so.. I don't even know the words to describe myself. Can't explain my anger right now. I feel like jumping infront of a cab and pass out and be warded in the hospital so I don't have to think. Even if its a short while. My brain is thinking so much, I can feel it pulsating. Like I told your brother, I will not be in a relationship with any other girls except you. I'll never leave you. I just gotta wait and hope, like you did when you needed me. You have my word on this. I love you.
