I'm sorry i have been hurting you. I should have known better that you gave me a second chance for a reason. And now, im only praying hard you will give me a third. Because I love you. I'm disgusted that i cant keep myself loyal to you. and when you told me that i dare say i love you, my heart broke. not because u left me. it broke because i broke yours. Everytime i look at your photo, it hurts me. and it hurts me more when i think of you not returning to me and think of you going on a date. i know it hurts u a whole lot more on another level when u know what i did behind your back when only my thoughts hurt me. i will not forgive myself for doing this to you. even if you did forgave me, i will never forgive you. because you have never done anything to hurt me. its only i who has been hurting you. too much. im shaking right now. because im angry. and im shaking also because im afraid. you know why im afraid. i hit myself alot. im torturing myself for all that i did to you even though its no use because wad im doing to myself now can not be compared to what i did to you. i just want to let you know that i love you so much. the last time i said ' i wont do it again' went down the drain. i just hope you can give me one last chance to prove it. because i cant do this thing call life without you. i wasnt doing life with her anyways. i told you, im living my life for you now, if not, you wont be seeing me in the past 2-3 years. im not expecting you to forgive me but. when i thought i could fall asleep last night, i heard you crying. thats why i called. My heart, it skips so fast whenever i think about you leaving me. Please dont. I've learned from my mistake. I pomise. GOD IM SO FURIOUS AT MYSELF RIGHT NOW. I LOVE YOU. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH.
Every night I rush to my bed With hopes that maybe I ll get a chance to see you when I close my eyes I m goin out of my head Lost in a fairy tale Can you hold my hand and be my guide Clouds filled with stars cover your skies And I hope it rains You re the perfect lullaby What kind of dream is this
You can be a sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare Either way I Don t wanna wake up from you Sweet dream or beautiful nightmare Somebody pinch me Your love s too good to be true
Turn the lights on
My guilty pleasure I ain t goin nowhere Baby, long as you re here I ll be floating on air You can be a sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare Either way I Don t wanna wake up from you
I mention you when I say my prayers I wrap you around all of my thoughts Boy, you are my temporary high I wish when I wake up you re there So wrap your arms around me for real And tell me you ll stay by my side
Clouds filled with stars cover the sky And I hope it rains You re the perfect lullaby What kind of dream is this
You can be a sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare Either way I Don t wanna wake up from you Sweet dream or beautiful nightmare Somebody pinch me Your love s too good to be true
Turn the lights on
My guilty pleasure I ain t goin nowhere Baby, long as you re here I ll be floating on air You can be a sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare Either way I Don t wanna wake up from you
Tattoo your name across my heart So it will remain Not even death can make us part What kind of dream is this
You can be a sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare Either way I Don t wanna wake up from you Sweet dream or beautiful nightmare Somebody pinch me Your love s too good to be true
My guilty pleasure I ain t goin nowhere Baby, long as you re here I ll be floating on air You can be a sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare Either way I Don t wanna wake up from you Turn the lights on
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I love you (x3)
Baby, I love you You are my life My happiest moments weren t complete If you weren t by my side You re my relation In connection to the sun With you next to me There s no darkness I can t overcome You are my raindrops I am the sea With you and God, who s my sunlight I bloom and grow so beautifully Baby, I m so proud So proud to be your girl You make the confusion Go all away From this cold and mixed my world
I am in love with you You set me free I can t do this thing Called life without you here with me Cause I m Dangerously Inlove with you I ll never leave Just keep loving me The way I love you loving me
Cause I am in love with you You set me free I can t do this thing Called life without you here with me Cause I m Dangerously Inlove with you I ll never leave Just keep loving me The way I love you loving me
And I know you love me Love me for who I am Cause years before I became who I am Baby, you were my man I know it ain t easy Easy loving me I appreciate the love and dedication From you to me Later on in my destiny I see myself having your child I see myself being your wife And I see my whole future in your eyes Thought of all my love for you Sometimes makes me want to cry Realize all my blessings I m grateful to have you by my side
I am in love with you You set me free I can t do this thing Called life without you here with me Cause I m Dangerously Inlove with you I ll never leave Just keep loving me The way I love you loving me
Cause I am in love with you You set me free I can t do this thing Called life without you here with me Cause I m Dangerously Inlove with you I ll never leave Just keep loving me The way I love with loving me
Everytime I see your face My heart smiles Everytime it feels so good It hurts sometimes Created in this world To love To hold To feel To breath To love you
I am in love with you You set me free I can t do this thing Called life without you here with me Cause I m Dangerously Inlove with you I ll never leave Just keep loving me The way I love you loving me
Cause I am inlove with you You set me free I can t do this thing Called life without you here with me Cause I m Dangerously Inlove with you I ll never leave Just keep loving me The way I love you loving me
Dangerously (Dangerously) Dangerous (Dangerous) Dangerously Inlove (Dangerously Inlove) With you (Dangerously Inlove)
Oh, I love you (Love you) Love you (Love you) I love you (I love you) I m Dangerously Inlove with you I love you (I love you) I love you (I love you) Dangerously Inlove (Dangerously In love)
Be with you. And only you. <3
See when the rain falls on my window And the thunder crashes on my ceiling It brings back the utmost feeling Of the day I saw you leaving Now anytime I see our picture Thinking bout being with ya
Tell me babe
What I gotta do to be with you Cause I'll do anything I know this don't matter for you I'll give up everything You don't believe me Then watch me prove Of what you mean to me And the way my pen and paper Swear to never sing again
See when the rain falls on my window And the thunder crashes on my ceiling It brings back the utmost feeling Of the day I saw you leaving Now anytime I see our picture Thinking bout being with ya
And it drives me outta my mind, my mind, my mind Cause I can't be by your side, your side, your side Girl I know words that can't explain The way I felt when you went away, away, away [Cause baby all I wanna do is be with you, be with you, be with you]x4 [ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/b/brutha/be_with_you.html ] Am I trippin girl? Tryin everything to get with you But nothing's working Baby I'm still hurtin And it looks like you're not ever coming back Feel like I'm such a fool Cause I deserve it Think it wasn't worth it Now really yours cause I want you back
See when the rain falls on my window And the thunder crashes on my ceiling It brings back the utmost feeling Of the day I saw you leaving Now anytime I see our picture Thinking bout being with ya
And it drives me outta my mind, my mind, my mind Cause I can't be by your side, your side, your side Girl I know words that can't explain The way I felt when you went away, away, away Cause baby all I wanna do is
I'm going crazy can somebody call me a doctor Don't need a straight jacket nothing can hold me under Don't need a medicine I've already passed insane The thought of missing you is prominently killing my brain And it drives me out of my mind, my mind, my mind Cause I can't be by your side, your side, your side Girl I know words that can't explain The way I felt when you went away, away, away [Cause baby all I wanna do is be with you, be with you, be with you]x4
I dont want my ex to be another man's treasure. because you are my treasure.
Since you don't like to say anything, neither will I. simple. (;
Monday, December 6, 2010
-9:50 PM:))
a short post before i sit for my final year paper.
All the best to myself.
im losing alot of hair due to the stressness(if this word ever exists).
gonna do something to it real soon.
ive got logic gates formula(s) and other engineering stuffs in my head now. it might explode anytime soon too. hopefully after 4.
gonna have the time of my life after this exam ends.
ilovemyotherhalf.
Love, Princess.
Sunday, November 14, 2010
-9:12 AM:))
When i first met you
I felt like i had known you forever, telling you my secrets and what i didn't want ever.
you listened to me i bet you thought i'd never end, who would have thought we would become more than just friends.
Over a period of time, i got to know the real you.
A boy so caring and gentle, with a heart so true.
You've survived your life with hurt and loneliness by your side.
I told you i'd never leave because of the feelings i have inside.
I know you like no one i have ever known, and sometimes i wonder what i'd do if you were gone?
So i have decided time answers all.
If it is meant to be time will remove the wall.
I love the way we are together, you can always make me smile.
Will it ever really be forever? I guess i will have to wait awhile.
Time will reveal, what lies ahead but always remember what i have said.
Meeting you has changed my life and i really love you so, the feelings i feel for you i am never letting go.
Remember me always and i will too.
I always think of me and you.
i love you prince.
Nur Atiqah
Mohd Ashraf Khan
Friday, October 29, 2010
-2:49 AM:))
I've put together, dried up words. But all I want to do is convey my simple feelings to you. the dark wind that blew from that day, it stayed. But I threw it away into yesterday's ruins, so I can live today with you with a smile. But still, that incident will hurt you. And as you said, you'll hold on as long as it takes. Which is why, I'll never say goodbye. Now, we'll just understand each other until nothing remains. And eventually, we will find out that is everything to us. Sadness will run down our cheeks, and becomes a river of tears. This trembling feeling will become a strong whirl and melt into each other, baby. I love you. With all my heart. The key to our relationship that I said I've forgotten, it will remain in my head now. I finally realised what you meant when you said no expectations. I get it. Like I said when you first told me that you don't want any expectations, I don't expect you to love me anymore. But I still want you to know that I still do love you. And I will forever love you. Choose between diamonds and sleep, you chose slept. Well, I choose to buy you them rocks while you sleep. And I hope that guy who commented on ur post was just kidding. Cos it striked me like lightning, how shocking it was when I read it. My darling, I'm sorry. I love you.
MAKBMA
NABN
Monday, October 11, 2010
-6:07 AM:))
Even tho the video is short, just listen to the words. (: Beautiful. Bby, its obvious that you were reading what you wrote down. (; I love you alot.
Today, I had a real surprise. Someone special ( up there in the video ) lied to me because she wanted to give me a mini surprise party. When the door was open, I thought it was the light outside and it was irritating cos it kept flickering. Little did I know that it was actually my bby carrying a birthday cake and singing me the happy birthday song. Sweet. And she got me the David Beckham's story set. Amazing. I love her you much. I love you so much. (:
MohdAshrafKhan NurAtiqah
Saturday, October 9, 2010
-10:49 AM:))
`MAKBMA & `NABN
Let me start off by telling you what an amazing man you are and that you fill my life with joy and satisfaction and my heart with love and happiness. Before I met you I had started to lose my faith in love, and I wasn't sure there was a someone out there for me. Now I am positive that there is no one in the world that could complete me like you do or even come close. Love seems more real and true than I ever thought it could and I just want to say thank you, thank you for being persistant in your fight to win my heart because you have won it and me over completely. My heart is yours forever.
I know that we have our fights and I make you think sometimes that you can't take anymore, but in my opinion all the good times make the bad ones worth it. We come out stonger in the end and I just want you to know that I love you and I am willing to stick it out through the good and bad, happy and sad because I choose us!
i love you.
HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY MY LOVE!
MohdAshrafKhan
NurAtiqah
Thursday, October 7, 2010
-4:27 AM:))
I miss her. I really do. I love her. I really do. When can I ever have the alone time for literally 24 hours with her? She's all I ever think about. All I ever want to be with. And the only one holding the key. It's killing me slowly inside until I can be with her forever. She is the sweetest I have set my eyes upon. If only ibu allows you to go out with me on the Saturday. And be home by 9.30 at least. Things are hard. Bby, when am I going to see you updating on my blog?
I love you dear.
MohdAshrafKhan
NurAtiqah
Saturday, October 2, 2010
-4:17 AM:))
Today, went out for raya to Cikgu Hartini's house, Ms Siti's house(kurangasam betol, kene kacau je) and Anisah's house. And ofcourse, my beautiful darling, Atiqah's house. And I must say, Nur Atiqah Binte Nordin, you look amazing, as always. Words can't describe how beautiful you are bby. I am very grateful (Alhamdulillah) to have you back again dear. (: I love you dear.
And a very Happy Birthday in advance to ayah. May his wishes come true, may his rezki be murah and may he be healthy always and be blessed by Allah always. (=
MohdAshrafKhan
NurAtiqah
Friday, October 1, 2010
-8:30 PM:))
The speed bag is up. Finally.
My princess, I miss you supercalifragilisticespialidocious much please. I wish to see you everyday! But sometimes it's impossible. ): I love you bby. (:
NABN, now that's a n all star chick. (;
MohdAshrafKhan
NurAtiqah
Tuesday, September 14, 2010
-7:43 AM:))
I love being lied to. I love hearing ' nothing ' or ' takde pape ' from you when we both know theres something. And most of all, I LOVE talking but hearing no response. The best. You promised you won't keep anything. So what was then? Hiding? I get it. It's different. So it's okay to do that. Have you ever realized I have been giving in just because I don't want you to shut up? You ever thought about what's going through my mind when you stay quiet? You ever thought of what I feel every time you do that? All I did was just say a little and you want to make it like is a fucking huge thing. But no worries, it's actually like a roller coaster ride for me. It's actually FUN. |=/
MohdAshrafKhan
NurAtiqah
Friday, September 3, 2010
-3:11 AM:))
What can I say about my darling. She looked super duper amazing on her birthday. Had one of the greatest day in my life. Nothing beats that day. We went to Breeks for her birthday dinner. I made her happy. I know I did. Finally, I can make her feel what she hasn't felt before. We had great laughs. Merajok abitabit. But love alotalot. (; What else can I say, she's my princess. Ofcourse she deserves that. But not just for her special day, She deserves that everyday. She deserves the best everyday for the rest of her life. And I will do all it takes to give her the best. And bby, take ur license with me laaaaah!! =P
She.. Is my Nur Atiqah Binte Nordin. I love her.
'If you think she's a special person in your life, study hard to have a better future. Encourage and motivate each other. Thanks to you too for making her 18th birthday a very special one.' - We know who said that. (=
i felt like i was on top of th world. everyone was just making my eighteenth birthday so worth it.
especially, you.
thank you so much love, for everything.
i dont know how to thank you.
Thank You(s) wont do just good. but, yea.
imma treat you right when your birthday comes alright!
haha.
hopefully by then i already have my license lah. :D
insyallah. (:
Grown Ups was like really bursting my happy nerves out!
never really had that extremely awesome great laugh since i dont know when.
thank you for putting that smile back on my face,and most importantly, my heart.
dinner at Breeks was superb.
ending was beyond than expected.
overall, Nur Atiqah is one happykid!
Happy Eighteen Birthdaaaaaaaay to Nur Atiqah!
i love you.
Post typed in by Nur Atiqah
NurAtiqah
MohdAshrafKhan
Tuesday, August 31, 2010
-8:01 PM:))
Just when I thought this day would be exciting and happy, I thought wrong for now.
MohdAshrafKhaninabe
NurAtiqah
Stop disrespecting you gerl. Before she leaves you. I'm sorry by. You're just irresistable. I'm trying, but not hard enough. Tomorrow, when I send you back, nothing else but just the one. Promise. I myself can't stand it. I know now why you changed you tone when you talked to me just as i reached home. And I know why you said what you said after it happened. I don't blame you. Only have myself to blame. No point saying sorry when we do it over and over again but, I am sorry. I love you.
MohdAshrafKhan
NurAtiqah
Sunday, August 29, 2010
-3:53 AM:))
I eat, sleep, breathe NABN. That's it.
MohdAshrafKhan
NurAtiqah
Thursday, August 26, 2010
-7:39 AM:))
Great day. Buke lua even though I couldn't puase. My sugar mama looking absolutely amazing as always. Bought her a tiny gift since the previous one is almost finished. I just love her. She's fabulous. She seems imperfect to the others but really is perfect to the one who loves her most. She's Nur Atiqah Binte Nordin. I hope ibu allows you to go buke lua again with me for your birthday. There's some place in mind I had thought of to bring you to. Hope you'd like it. Love you forever bby. And to Sulaiman, even though kau tak tau aku ade blog, sorry ah pasal aku jealous biler aku tau kau slalu call atiqah. And about that thing you talked to me along with Sheila and the few others, thanks nigger.
MohdAshrafKhan
NurAtiqah
Sunday, August 22, 2010
-8:55 AM:))
It doesn't feels right because you don't seem to be happy about it.
MohdAshrafKhan
NurAtiqah
I need to take it out. This is really making me angry. I have alot to say but I dont want to. Forget it.
MohdAshrafKhan
NurAtiqah
Saturday, August 21, 2010
-6:35 AM:))
That's just a smile showing that she's aware and agree for me to be in love. -My Princess
MohdAshrafKhan NurAtiqah
Friday, August 20, 2010
-4:02 AM:))
For real now, let's kill me.
MohdAshrafKhan
NurAtiqah
Tuesday, August 17, 2010
-3:29 AM:))
Sometimes, I really would like to jump in front of a car, end up in a hospital just so I can see you. Why can't overprotective parents learn that they have to slowly let go of their child as they watch them grow. Instead, they get more and more strict. I'm sorry bby. )=
MohdAshrafKhanina
NurAtiqah
Monday, August 16, 2010
-2:55 AM:))
I'm so in love with you. You got me standing again. You are one in the world. You know your name is already tattooed across my heart. You know that. (;
I love you
Baby I love you You are my life My happiest moments weren't complete If you weren't by my side You're my relation In connection to the sun With you next to me There's no darkness I can't overcome You are my raindrop I am the sea With you and God, who's my sunlight I bloom and grow so beautifully Baby, I'm so proud So proud to be your girl You make the confusion Go all away From this cold and messed up world
I am in love with you You set me free I can't do this thing Called life without you here with me Cause I'm Dangerously In Love with you I'll never leave Just keep lovin' me The way I love you loving me
And I know you love me Love me for who I am Cause years before I became who I am Baby you were my man I know it ain't easy Easy loving me I appreciate the love and dedication From you to me Later on in my destiny I see myself having your child I see myself being your wife And I see my whole future in your eyes Thought of all my love for you sometimes make me wanna cry Realize all my blessings I'm grateful To have you by my side
Every time I see your face My heart smiles Every time it feels so good It hurts sometimes Created in this world To love and to hold To feel To breathe To love you
Dangerously in love Can't do this thing I love you , I love you, I love you I'll never leave Just keep on loving me I'm in love with you I can not do I cannot do anything without you in my life Holding me, kissing me, loving me Dangerously I love you Dangerously in love
MohdAshrafKhan
NurAtiqah
Saturday, August 14, 2010
-6:04 AM:))
When bad times became good, and good times becomes great. And its all thanks to that one special person. Who had never left me but only for a few months. Who had never stopped thinking about me at all. Who has been loving me still. Thank you my dearest. I will alwaysh love you. XD
MohdAshrafKhan
NurAtiqah
Saturday, August 7, 2010
-6:30 AM:))
What we had yesterday, was absolutely sensational. Down right out of the world sensational. It was a never to be forgotten. N E V E R ! !Wow by, it's beyond sensational, beyond believable! I don't know how to explain it but just picture yourself waking up to a beautiful scenery in the morning with the girl of your dreams. That's what I felt yesterday afternoon. And I am sure I will feel that way again in 10 years time. Except this time, I won't have to imagine myself waking up to a beautiful scenery with my dream girl cos I will be waking up to a beautiful scenery in he morning with my dream girl. Nur Atiqah Binte Nordin. =)
MohdAshrafKhan
NurAtiqah
Sunday, August 1, 2010
-4:13 AM:))
Do you know what it's like, getting up every morning feeling hopeless? Feeling like the love of your life is waking up with the wrong man. But at the same time, hoping that she still finds happiness. Even if it's never going to be with you? I am flat out. Out of my mind. I know that. Still, I hope it will be with me.
MohdAshrafKhan
NurAtiqah
Friday, July 30, 2010
-4:16 AM:))
And so I got her the necklace as soon as the cash dropped into my bank. Since she knows what's the price, I won't mind saying it either. It's a $329 necklace from TAKA jewelry. Not exactly the $400 necklace I said but it just calls your name when I looked at it. You've said it but I'll say it again. I hope you'll like it. And i really hope it means something special to you. I just want that everything with you. I was planning to give you with a bouqet of flowers but you don't like them much so maybe it might be meaningless if I get them. I love you by. Thank you. For all... I just hope you'd love me too (=
MohdAshrafKhan NurAtiqah
Thursday, July 29, 2010
-3:49 AM:))
I guess i'm just too afraid to lose you again. But even so, I shouldn't be saying things that is stressful instead of helpful. I'm sorry b. I haven't been sleeping since last night. And I still can't sleep cos' I am worried. Please don't ignore me. I've got things to talk about everytime I think about you but then again, you won't even return my messages. =( I am not a burden to you. I get it. Thank you b. And.. I love you.
MohdAshrafKhan
NurAtiqah
Wednesday, July 28, 2010
-7:43 AM:))
Take me to hell. Just bring mama back. ='(
MohdAshrafKhan
Tuesday, July 27, 2010
-6:57 AM:))
For tonight, ouch. =(
MohdAshrafKhan
NurAtiqah
I miss you. (: Can't wait for this Sunday. Ok now I am too damn hungry to think about what to say. But i'm never too anything to think about my sugar mama. =) Anyways, tak sahor this morning, had to control myself when my idiotic friends kept saying how good the food is and how better it would taste when you're hungry and now waiting for buke. Stomach rumbling like there's a drummer in there. I'm even too lethargic to be typing so I will try to continue tonight. If anything special comes up. But you know even when you say hi, it's special to me. I love you b. (=
MohdAshrafKhan
NurAtiqah
Sunday, July 25, 2010
-6:27 AM:))
I just want things to be a surprise for you, you know. Sometimes, the things I do, I just hope it impresses you. This time, I want you to say it to me first. Say that you love me. Cos I really do love you. And what I dreamt of this noon after I send you home really made me happy. But also, it made me think.
MohdAshrafKhan NurAtiqah
Friday, July 23, 2010
-8:43 PM:))
Well, here goes another year. I miss your touch. Your kiss. Your jokes. Our midnight chats. I miss you ma. Why must this happen to you ma. Why can't you be at home now so I can just look into your eyes and make my day when you smile. I do accept the fact that you are gone but I hate the fact that you had to go. I just wish I can see you again. Still I go to room hoping to see you, still I think you are just going outside coming home soon. Still I think i'd be listening to you laugh. Still I think I can feel you loving me here. I just miss you so much ma. I know its impossible but will you come home? I really want to see you again. ;( I want to cry till blood has to take over the tears. I love you ma. The most. Second comes my queen. Then my family. And next, my princess.
Can anyone help me. I pray for you to return to me. I pray for you to open ur heart just so I can enter. I pray for you to be by my side when I leave this world. I pray for you to love me till forever. But I still don't understand. Please say something. I Love you.
MohdAshrafKhan
NurAtiqah
Thursday, July 22, 2010
-4:26 AM:))
I just feel happy. (= If you ever return, i'll be glad to call you my gerl again b. I'll be glad to tell the peeps that you are my gerl. Fact, they don't gotta ask. I'll go to them and say it. I love u b. (=
7.40 seE! Si. ;)
MohdAshrafKhan
NurAtiqah
Wednesday, July 21, 2010
-3:31 AM:))
So tell me. What's the reason I didn't make it in your future? ='(
Part of me is saying, I am stupid. Can't complain bout that. Part of me tells me to go destroy myself. Won't complain bout that either.
I love you.
MohdAshrafKhan
Tuesday, July 20, 2010
-3:48 AM:))
Stop making things worse will you.
I regret every minute of everday we aren't together since I broke up with you. Iunderstand, you don't want to be with me. Or him. Or anyone anymore. I'll leave you alone if you really want me to. I get it. You are in the toughest situation right now. I'm sorry. I just thought we can really have that something special we've always had again.
'Are you gonna leave me alone?'
That depends, I'll never leave you alone in terms of always being there for you. Whenever you need me, I promise you. Even if its in the middle of my class, or middle of my work. Even if its 3am in the morning. I'll always have time for you.
I will leave you alone if you say I am making this too hard.
But I never want to lose you again. I can't afford to. Even if you decide not to be with me again, you will forever be my princess. I love you. Really. =/
MohdAshrafKhan
Sunday, July 18, 2010
-7:33 AM:))
Thannk god. Amin!. It made me feel great knowing I could make you happy dear. But like I said, no matter how happy I made you, it will never be enough for me. Today morning, I sent her to work. Haha moments. -,- Haha at me instead of with me! And then, I was super freaking early for work! Like 1 hour! So, I took out my iPod and started stealing photos of my baby, hehe. Waited till 7.58am til I started walking to KFC to get my breakfast (yummy). And went back to the store only to find out that it opens at 8 on Sundays. And then, the most epic, most bahalol and I REPEAT, most BAHALOL thing happened. Only BAHLULS can do this. The goon, (don't wanna say who) wanted to sit on the stool I was sitting on. And so I did, since malas nak layan. She moved the stoll slightly forward, took her book, looked at the stool again, HOLD the stool and sat down. But she MISSED and fell backwards, leading her legs up in the air! Hahaha! So setoopid! After all those, I counted the hours till I could meet her again, my sayang. =) But I had to make her wait for an hour and a half. =( Sry by.. And we took the train from Outram to Punggol, and took bus number 3 home. Alot of funny things I tell you! and 4/5 of it is about me. -,- I still love you. Well, she says I cant meet for for the whole of next week. I'm still wondering why. =/ Its okay. And by, about your hair style, I promise, you'll get it back. =) End of this month, or early week of next month. I think that's all I want to say.
With Love,
MohdAshrafKhan
NurAtiqah
[ Only 6 more days to your 2 years ma. I love you.=) ]
Saturday, July 17, 2010
-3:25 AM:))
Please don't do that again by. U always made my heart skipped a beat everytime u say that. I'll be with u till u are ready. I'll wait for u cos u once waited for me. Take ur time to gather urself back together. I know its hard for u to trust me now too. I understand why. I love you by. Kisskiss.
Walked into a wall on the way home just now. While eating my strawberry cheesetart. Shiiieet. Into the wall, HEAD FERST! Omg... Talked alone for hours. She kissed me thru the phone! Like ohmygawd! Abe makan nasi ayam as soon as i reached home. And talk to Cik Tipah while eating.
And now, as time goes by, my cough gets worse. And I get tired very fast. hmm. God help me.
MohdAshrafKhan
NurAtiqah
Friday, July 16, 2010
-6:34 AM:))
What are the odds of getting caught today. I had a feeling we'd get caught someday. I just hope she'd just forgive and forget. I feel the guilt everytime I think of it. Even if you wont forgive, atleast forget bout it please. I am so sorry. =(
Anyways, I thought I would be spending a few hours with my bby slenget much but something came up. Scared a quarter of my life that I was shaking. Anyways, I gotta mild bronchitis. I would be going for a full body check up after I get this bronchitis treatment done. Just hope it wont get any worse.
Everyday I have been thinking bout you. Let's do what we do best. Love each other. That's all I wanna do. Love you till I go on to my next life, and still continue to love you. I think i've tried all possible ways to show you that I love you. I hope u feel it too. I love you sayang. =) Ive never been anywhere near as very happy since I was with mama until now. And only you has made that possible. I may show to others that I am laughing and all but they dont know. Nur Atiqah Nordin, you are my sayaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaang. And I am her monsterrrr!!! Grrawr-ing loud please. Love her much can? ;)
MohdAshrafKhan NurAtiqah
Thursday, July 15, 2010
-6:08 AM:))
Collapsed yesterday night. Couldn't call my bby. I feel bad that she was feelin worried. =( Goin for full body check up tomorrow. And finally meeting her again. Not seeing you for afew days feels like afew years. Dont think im crazy in love okay! I just miss her so much. God knows how much. Its ok if we don't step into the huge door yet. I know we will go as plan but we can take it slowly. I know there's still much for us to learn about each other even though we already knew each other for 5 years. And my dream to have breakfast with you and then walk by the beach after that will eventually happen. You and I. I'm glad to be yours again. Only girl in my life worth sharing my love. I love you too bby. And btw. I'm her monster. ^^ And I love her.
MohdAshrafKhan
NurAtiqah
Tuesday, July 13, 2010
-5:26 AM:))
After very long, I finally felt your pain after I kept reading your past entries. I was heartless before, which is why I didn't knew you were in pain. I let the love of my life suffer 3 years when I go out trying to date other girls. What the hell was I thinking back then. You didn't open your eyes big enough to see she was by your side the whole time? You didn't open your heart big enough to know we belong together. What the fuck is the matter with you? One of my own rules was never to hurt a lady physically. But I didn't knew I could hurt them mentally.
And if you really were to come back to me, then I swear I am very lucky. For not only has HE given me the second chance, but so did you. I really can't believe I was a beast. I'm so angry at myself right now. I'm crying right now because i've hurt you too much. I don't want to hurt you ever again. Apologies won't do anything much because these are just words that express. I wish I can do something for you. All the guilty conscience has come. Even when I know I made her happy, I know it's never enough. Because what I did to her was monstrous. I am a monster. Tell me that it's enough and I will accept it. But I will never think it is enough.
I do wanna be my boyfriend. And hopefully when things go well, I want to be your husband. You really are my princess. I miss you so much too. And most importantly, I do love you. I never want to hurt you anymore. I never want to make you feel alone anymore. I don't want to make you miss me because I am not yours but I do want to make you miss me because I am yours. My princess. My number 1. My Beyonce. My.. Nur Atiqah. I will love you till the afterlife. I will promise you anything.
I'd buy you the star in space to prove that I really do love you. I'll cross the world just to see your beautiful eyes again. I'll fight off anyone or anything that tries to tear us apart. Because nobody will ever tear us apart again. I'm very sorry I did all those to you. I love you. I love my Nur Atiqah Binte Nordin Bin Mohd Noh. =)
And that, my whoever is reading. Is a pure post that really came from my heart.
MohdAshrafKhan
NurAtiqah
Monday, July 12, 2010
-9:29 AM:))
Today, was the best day i've had for so far this year. I spent half the day with her. I'm not gonna say everything. But it feels good to be back home. ;) Its 12.31am and I can't sleep. I tried tossing and turning on my bed but its not working. And I am in a fight with my headache right now. I want to lead that happy life you said. Just live in Singapore will do. But we will travel around the world and you know what. hehe. Well, I won't say anymore because the rest are between me and her. ^^
S92340453J. U know I love u very much. =)
MohdAshrafKhan
Friday, July 9, 2010
-11:30 PM:))
I wish... We can have an endless kiss. ILY.
Here's the names we had planned. Well only we know for what. =)
Ana Nyla Ana Amiliah Ana Aulia Adriana Natasha Ana Adriana Nyla Adriana
MohdAshrafKhan
I'm feeling like, exactly how I felt when I knew mama passed away. You still decide on being with the guy you know for 4 or 5 months. I guess you are thinking it's right. Everytime I think of you now, I get uneasy, heart beating fast and my brain forms all sorts of words and pictures.
Lest just wait.
MohdAshrafKhan
Why can't I relive the past? Don't we all wish we have powers. I want to turn back time. Back into your arms again. I can't... God knows how I feel now. ='[
